Complicated.

"The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child, a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity." - Dr. Benjamin Franklin

This weekend was so lovely. I stargazed and took long walks. I baked chocolate Guinness stout cake with Bailey's frosting with Futty. I had a magnificent dinner over looking the water at Pilot House with Futty and Doug. Then we made a bonfire and drank some Sailor Jerry's with coke. It all went by so fast. It's finally happened, but the silence is 1000x worse than the outcome I didn't want. At least I would know.

tennessee. kentucky. do you hear the S3 and S4 gallops? me neither.

this weekend was so memorable.

friday i got some work done before savita and emily drove up from newark to me :) we hung out with some kids at canoe club and then moved it along to murphy's and then back to lebanon. we had a mini dance party and fell asleep (i think i could have seen the sun rise). then when we got home we slept until noon before going to shryl's in west leb. emily got a cheeseburger with fries, savita got french toast with eggs and bacon. i had eggs over easy with homemade whole wheat toast and a side of warm blueberries. so good, especially with hot coffee to wash it down. then we walked to the connecticut river by tuck and sat on a picnic bench talking about whatever. we mosied on over to the green and laid out while people watching. then we walked home, showered and got dinner at molly's with aly and judy. it was so nice to have a little miami spring break reunion! then we went to canoe and chatted with qunyh, marianne, nora, and others. later, we danced at the vt school fundraiser with ryan, kenoma, wes, dan, and whoever else was untzing along to the music. sunday was bittersweet as we slowly got up, ate food and made our way to our destinations - for them, it was new york; for me, it was the library.

this week had a hard start as i tried to finish, let me take that back, catch up on everything. but i probably shouldn't have wasted hours on making homemade granola (which rock by the way... excuse me as i toot my own horn). i had a good day cheering on the dms 2014 vs 2015 soccer game yesterday. WE WONNNNN 3-2 WOOOOOOOO. everyone was so intense on the field and off. but all in all, spirits were high and there was a great deal of sportsmanship (though i'm not sure if it was all necessarily good - yeah i'm talking about you #6). then i resumed studying and went to the gym before studying some more. today i skipped pharm and sat with erin and dan as we studied our own things. path lab with nate was so productive as we also caught up on our summers and lives. 6 weeks and counting until his baby girl! i'm excited to meet her. and then i just had lunch with anna, my little sib, who is amazing! she has accomplished so much and is super motivated, which is inspiring to see that spark that i feel i've lost throughout the year. i made tofu coconut curry and she brought slices of blueberry peach pie from lou's for us. it was... divine. happily i got to run into ashley and we made our way to the biochem office and continued on our candy tradition. and then now as i sit in the library, i got to talk with a friend who said, as she walked away to class, "i want to see more of you." which is always nice to know. the feeling is mutual, by the way.

reality is what we take to be true...

...what we take to be true is what we believe. what we believe is based upon our perceptions. what we perceive depends upon what we look for. what we look for depends on what we think. what we think depends on what we perceive. what we perceive determines what we believe. what we believe determines what we take to be true. what we take to be true is our reality.
-david bohm

friday we dressed up in 90s gear. the people attending class has diminished... and i'm about to jump on the bandwagon. it seems more productive to be at home. i studied for a bit after going to the gym. then i went to heart rounds to catch up with a few people i haven't seen yet and then some. after, ryan and kenoma drove us back to their place for a gathering to celebrate cindy, ryan and my birthdays. at first there were many many asians (with at least a little in them) except kenoma. susannah, their neighbor baked a wonderful chocolate cake and a second rum cake. they were SO good. it was nice to be with friendly faces.

(photo by s. choe)

yesterday i woke up without the alarm clock and studied before going to the gym. it seems like a trend, eh? i wish the sun would come out.

the big dipper

never seemed so bright as it did tonight.

tonight was so cool. on doc was awesome as i got acquainted with my new preceptor. she is totally rad. and then i studied at dana with dan in the quiet room until julia picked me up to hang out at the norwich inn. i was preoccupied with andes mints until a few more people came to mix and mingle. i love how people are so wonderful here... they do so much to make me smile without even trying.

and when i got home, i texted one of my oldest friends. he amazingly always knows what to say, especially when i'm sad. i wonder what he thinks about... i'll find out in october i guess.