"Here's my key: Philosophy. A freak like me just needs infinity"

there is a hill behind my room that i see outside my window. every morning, i turn around and see people walking single file down the steep slope on their right side of the road. every morning, i turn around and see bicyclists pedal slowly but with much effort up the hill on their right side of the road. i'm sure there are other people who walk on their left side or maybe even side by side, but that's what i remember. and isn't it always the case that we see what we want to see, that we remember what we want to remember?

it's interesting to know that how we perceive things is not necessary what they are. there is no real end to these philosophical arguments because we just don't know - absolute reality? phenomenal reality? even the matrix theory? there are so many hypotheses. one tricky component is the fact that our brain edits everything. so it doesn't matter what we see.. whether objects are seen upside down and our brain revert it to be seen a certain way or if the object is in our blind spot and our brain fills in the blanks. and should i even begin musing about the concept of COLOR? wavelengths of light?? (and yeah, physicists figured out why the sky is blue - it deals with the curvature of the earth and how light is reflected into our eyes so try asking something else if you want to be philosophical).

and it completely boggles my mind why we are termed rational beings but are so irrational. actually, it shouldn't. it all comes down to emotion. it clouds your judgment. it skews up the puzzle pieces that would normally fit perfectly together. but i guess if things were easy, wouldn't we all be bored? if we figured out all the questions we had in life or could read other people's minds, would we even bother getting up in the morning anymore? plus, it makes for hella good conversation.