"just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's alright because I like the way it hurts"

i'm currently in my room in new hampshire. how bittersweet.

last evening, seanie came to hang out after he got off work. i had run 2/3 of my usual route, but went back to shower before meeting up. i talked him into walking the last 1/3 with me as we caught up about a lot. i can't believe melissa died. of a drug overdose? i haven't seen or talked to her in at least five years, but it's ridiculous how i knew her at one time. and another melissa is engaged! and word on the street is that houman is engaged to his long time gf! so many celebrations, including cynthia's wedding in two weeks!  dave and vi came back too so we all reminisced for awhile. then seanie left and i went to bed at like 12:30 a to wake up at 4 a.

around 6, we had our breakfast in the form of peaches, shrimp and chinese broccoli in the packed car. dave and vi also had some steak my mom seared. we drove to boston at like 10 and went to flour bakery for the sticky bun, egg & brie brioche pizza, and french toast. by 10:30, we drove to cambridge and went to alive and kicking lobsters for the famous lobster salad sandwich on toasted sesame bread and potato chips. he usually opens at 11, but he made the three sandwiches for us early. each $13.95. i took a few bites, but i couldn't finish since i was still full from flour cafe. i took over the wheel and drove up 93N and 89N into hanover. at 2, we arrived at my house to unpack and i finished up my delicious sandwich and sticky bun. sigh, dave and vi just left, and i can hear the crows cawing. the solitude has settled in. i'll explore tomorrow, but i think i just need a shower and a good night's sleep.