"they may say that i'm a dreamer, but i'm not."

this weekend has been so intense. in terms of the he said-she said whispers, i am really glad i grew up where i grew up. my nuclear family was not perfect; it's far from perfect still. yet however misunderstood and angry i felt, i always felt loved. some people can't say they felt that. i know that if i grew up in california with the family i have here, it would have been different. despite my insecurities and issues with certain things like trust, i feel my problems would have been magnified by a trillion. especially since the first thing i'm always greeted with is "you lost/gained weight." (it was lost weight this time around...)

anyway, so friday: cindy, wendy and i went to the movies to watch charlie st. cloud. there was a random woman with big hair and a white tank top who came all the way up to where we sat to "borrow" our ticket stubs since her "two year old daughter lost their tickets" and the other two needed to come in. i hesitantly gave it to her. and yes, she never came back. anyway, the plot took an interesting and unpredictable twist. the movie was alright, but zac efron made it worth watching the entire way through. then we went to dinner for schmucks which was hilarious. paul rudd was great and steve carrell was priceless. especially when he quoted things wrong, like the john lennon song lyric from above. saturday we went to irvine spectrum as our usual tradition. today i went to los angeles with uncle roger, aunt sandy, aunt jennie and grandma. we went to new capital seafood restaurant, a dim sum place, in san gabriel and ate soooo much, the receipt said 21 dishes including ha cheung, ha gao, dan tat, gei bao, and a lot more, but i refrained from eating the chicken feet and meaty dishes. ray picked me up at broadway and college before going to his apartment at eagle rock. we walked around and he bought me some blue dot frozen yogurt where we met mike lee who showed us some of his interesting photography. he graduated from the art center in pasadena, which ray highly praised. we then hopped on the 84 metro bus to the verdrugo bar in glassell park. i had the pear ale and ray had a chocolatey expresso tasting beer. then we went back to la to meet my family but not before going to a taco place where he got a vegetable taco and a potato taco. the potato one was like mashed potatoes stuffed in hard taco shell fried to perfection. the bite i had was so good! he dropped me off at broadway and ord, the rendezvous point. my family took me to the tin tin restaurant in rosemead where we had spinach in garlic sauce, fried fish, steamed fish, clams, seaweed, and soup.

so now i'm packing and i am SO HAPPY. tomorrow i'll be back in my old apartment to move all my stuff back by 7 pm. and then i'll be chillin' with meera, emily, anj and whoever else. tuesday, i'll be in new york and bothering whoever is around - hopefully seeing ken, savita, kenny, plus the usual people before sleeping over at meera's with savita. and then wednesday i'll be in tr with amy, thursday with jena, and friday with whoever is around (like sean or andre??) and then saturday dave is helping me move in nh!! i can't lie, the thought of living with three boys in a house is making me nervous.